So I did something drastic. I quit my full-time, secure, benefits and all, adult job.
I was working for a fantastic organization with a great culture and wonderful people. I have nothing but the utmost respect and love for my co-workers, and the company itself. We had a great relationship and I was promoted a couple of months ago to a new position. The job was in an exciting industry and likely had a lot of room for growth on a promising career path. BUT, I was unhappy.
I had been unhappy there for months. And I’m not just talking about a couple of busy and stressful weeks, but a deep rooted unhappiness that was overflowing into the rest of my life. I knew that I didn’t want to be there anymore and that I wasn’t planning on sticking around for very long anyway, but told myself that it would be good experience. “It will look good on your resume” I kept convincing myself. The thing is, I knew it was not where I wanted to be. And if that’s the case, is it worth investing more time and energy into something, just to add a couple of extra bullet points to your resume?
Sure, it’s not necessarily a con to have additional experience in anything, but when we only have so much time on this earth why waste any of it doing things you don’t want to be doing? Most people have multiple careers throughout their lifetime, and not everyone has one true passion. Heck, some people may never find their passion. But isn’t it worth it to try and figure it out?
So that’s what I have decided to do – take time to focus on exploring my interests and other opportunities. I am going to dabble in everything I can that excites me, through courses, volunteering, freelance and contract work, travel. Of course I am still working because hey, a girl’s gotta eat, but I am trying to dip my toes into all of the things that really interest me and may lead me on the right path.
I’m not at a point in my life that I need to be in a job I dislike. I’m not supporting anyone but myself (and barely that). I’m 25. I’m allowed to be selfish with my money and my time and my energy. I don’t want to end up being 35,40,50, and still stuck in something I dislike because I waited too long and missed my opportunity to be selfish.
And funny enough, since leaving my full time job I have been even busier than before. I have had multiple opportunities and doors open, made new connections, and am feeling so much more fulfilled overall. I still don’t know exactly what “it” is for me, but I’m hoping this time to explore new avenues helps set me on a path towards it. I am happier and more excited about life than I have been in a long time. I’ve got plans, but I am also letting things come as they may.
Not everyone has the desire or need to stop and re-direct their path, but everyone has this option. We’ve only got one shot at this thing, so why not make the most of it? Enjoy the full ride and switch directions whenever you want – you are always in the driver’s seat.